The Devil’s Home Ground

Trying to be the biggest hero there ever was…
Embrace it all, just because…because
Someone's gotta do it, it needs getting done
Someone's gotta glue all the jillions back to one

So sign me up woncha send me down
Line me up and spin me around
Wind me up, cuz those lost aren't found
Find me, up on the devil's home ground

Nah nah nana nana nah nah nah
Na nana nah nana nah nah nana nana
Nah nah nana nana nah nah nah
Nah nana nana nana nah nah nah

Piercing dreams was my food as a child
Right down to business, no room for the wild
Didn't get to see it, didn't know it was there
I didn't get to be it, 'til I stood free and clear

They had… sized me up in a swift surround
Tied me up, and silenced my sound
Divided me up 'til my up was down
Binded me up on the devil's home ground

Na na nana nana …

Baby Moon, monster Pluto …I'll cry, in you go
Uranus…we'll let go of you, and you of us…ohhh
Venus and Mars…let go of those bars
Neptune , The Sisters…teach us in whispers
Mercury, Chiron…let bygones be bygones
Part of Fortune, the Dragon…Heartland's Dream is a-naggin'
Jupiter, Saturn…please change the pattern
For the Sun, and the Earth, for a safe ark for birth

Do we need to reconsider that old cinematic spin
Where the bad guys get gone, and the good guys win?
When we tell this tale of adventure and glory
Will they say that this movie's based on a true story?

Wire me up, while I'm underground
Fire me up, for a penny, a pound
Inspire me up, with resources unbound
Find me up on the devil's homeground

Hire me up I'll search the town
Inquire me up so my motivation's sound
Desire me up 'til those lost get found
Find me up on the devil's homeground
Find me up on the devil's homeground
Find me up on the devil's…
Someday heaven's…true ground

Na na na na na!

Love Came To Hell  

words & music: Phoenix Wolf-Ray

I used to cry in the night for someone safe to come
I used to long for the light to come and take me home
Love was a fantasy, a lie I was told
Love was the winter sun, distant and cold
Part of my heart has been encased in stone
There's a hole in my soul where I was always alone
Like a child in a dungeon, like a fish in a bowl
Love came, love found me, love made me whole

Now I want to rock like a baby in my baby's arms
I want to roll like the ocean, want to blow like a storm
Want to ring like a bell, to tell the world of the deed
How love came to hell, and love freed me

Oh you know life's been lonely and love's been cold
I spent a long long time being busy growing old
But now love's come, and I'm growing young
I want to play like a child whose life has just begun
Love called me from the shadows, woke me from the dead
Love lit me like a lantern, crept into my head
Love showered me with flowers, love warmed my aching bones
Love came, love found me, love took me home  

Now I want to rock like a baby in my baby's arms
I want to roll like the ocean, want to blow like a storm
Want to ring like a bell, to tell the world of the deed
How love came to hell, and love freed me  

My baby rocks me in his arms, he rolls me with the tide
He warms me like the summer sun, he spreads me wide
He moves me like a stormy sea, and soothes me like a breeze
People let me tell you what love's done for me
Love called me from the shadows, woke me from the dead
Love lit me like a lantern, crept into my bed
Love showered me with flowers, love warmed my aching bones
Love came, love found me, love took me home

Now I want to rock like a baby in my baby's arms
I want to roll like the ocean, want to blow like a storm
Want to ring like a bell, to tell the world of the deed
How love came to hell, and love freed me

Cup Of Clay (The Potter’s Song) 

I drink from a cup that is made out of clay
Wrought by the hands of a friend
And each time I drink I can't help but think
What a gift are the hands of a friend
She rubbed it and rocked it and rolled it on stone
She shaped it and baked it and called it her own

Do you think you're alone
Do you think you're the only one
Who cares for your fate
Do you think it's too late
To find your way home
Do you think you're alone?

I eat from a plate that is made out of clay
Wrought by the hands of a friend
And each time I sup I feel lifted up
By the firm gentle hands of my friend
She rubbed it and rocked it and rolled it on stone
She shaped it and baked it and called it her own

I thought I was alone
I thought I was the only one
Who cared for my fate,
I thought it was too late
To find my way home
I thought I was alone

I’m here in a body that's made out of clay
Wrought by the hands of a friend
And now that I'm here, I feel those hands near
The life giving hands of my friend
She rubbed me and rocked me and rolled me on stone
She shaped me and baked me and called me Her own

And I am not alone
I am not the only one
To care for my fate,
I am not too late
To find my way home
No, I am not alone

Someday, I'll live in a house that is made out of clay
Wrought by the hands of my friends
I’ll eat and I’ll sleep, I’ll dream and I’ll keep
My heart in the hands of my friends
They’ll rub me and rock me and roll me on stone
They’ll shape me and bake me and call me their own

And we are not alone
We are not the only ones
To care for our fates,
It’s never too late
To find our way home
No, we are not alone

Sitting On A Fence  

 Sitting on a fence, right here in the middle of nowhere
Wondering where is the spring in my leap of faith
Shivering and cold on this fence I’ve been travelling nowhere
And I’m wondering just how long our heaven will take

You’re sitting here on this fence with me, loving me anyway
And I know we’ve been having ourselves one helluva time
I need your help, and I know you need mine, every day
And here on this dark island, o your light, it does shine

Dare I step down, can I touch ground
Are those your hands, reaching for mine
Can I tell if you're real, can you help me to heal
Is that our land, just over the brine?

Gotta learn how to live in the trees again somehow
Wanna learn how to live my desires again
Be in us now, show us how to fly, once more
And we can remember to trust our Mother again

Dare I step down, can I touch ground
Are those your hands, reaching for mine
Can I tell if you're real, can you help me to deal
Is that our land, just over the brine?

Scared we’ll freeze solid if we don’t make a move
Walls inside, a nightmare come to life
You say, "Close your eyes, come one step at a time,my loves"

Feet on the ground, love all around
Are those your hands, with ours entwined
Can you show us you’re real, can you help us to feel
At home in your land, give us a sign

Sitting on a fence, right here in the middle of nowhere
Wondering where is the spring in our leap of faith
Shivering and cold on this fence we’ve been travelling nowhere
And we’re wondering just how long our heaven will take

Texas Is Tiny

My dad was a drifter, he travelled around
He finally settled in his hometown
It wasn't too long before he'd wasted away
The cancer it took him on Thanksgiving Day

It was a long way home; he'd been out on the coast
It was a long way home to the folks he loved the most
Past Hope and Hell's Gate
From the Island to Fraser Lake
'Cause even Texas is tiny compared to BC
Yes even Texas is tiny compared to BC

My dad was a player, electric guitar
He played all he could at parties and bars
Then he broke his neck one time on a glider he'd made
And he finally recovered, but he never more played

It was a long way home; he'd been out on the coast
It was a long way home to the folks he loved the most
Past Hope and Hell's Gate
From the Island to Fraser Lake
'Cause even Texas is tiny compared to BC
Yes even Texas is tiny compared to BC

My dad was a dreamer, he lived for the day
With stars in his eyes, he was like a child at play
He met his first great-grandchild and he cuddled him close
The very next day, yeah, my dad was a ghost

It was a long way home; he'd been out on the coast
It was a long way home to the folks he loved the most
Past Hope and Hell's Gate
From the Island to Fraser Lake
'Cause even Texas is tiny compared to BC
Yes even Texas is tiny compared to BC

Come Home With Me 

Come home with me, come home with me
You are my dead dreams, you are my seas
My long buried schemes, my hollowed out trees
My trinkets and treasure, my visions of Green
Come home with me, come back to me
 
Come back to me, come home to me
All of my lost selves that had dreams to be
All of the ways I have killed to be free
Come home with me, come let’s be free

Come be a part of it, come make a start of it
Come in to shining life opening in me
Come for I’m told, come, it’s been cold
Come to the green country, come home with me

All of you out there who want to live
All of my parts that slipped thru a blind sieve
All of my baggage and wallage I give
A signpost is open to all blessed be
Come home with me, come let’s be free

Come be a part of it, come make a start of it
Come in to shining life opening in me
Come for I’m told, come, it’s been cold
Come to the green country, come home with me

All of you out there who want to die
All of the ghosts who forgot how to try
Bring me the fears and the tears you can’t cry
The signpost’s still open to all blessed be
Come home with me, come let’s be free

Come be a part of it, come make a start of it
Come in to shining life opening in me
Come for I’m told, come, it’s been cold
Come to the green country, come home with me

Indigo  

Living in a lonely room inside my head
Giving in, letting in the unquiet dead
Tapping on the windows, weaving through the gloom
of my lonely room... my lonely room...

Open up, fill my cup with bitter tears
Giving up, going down for too many years
Black ice hid in shining shadows, fading into
my lonely room... my lonely room...

A secret isn't sacred when no one wants to know
A treasure ain't worth hiding when there's no one to show
and a heart that can't be broken is too hard to be true
oh it's a lonely room..., my lonely room...

My lonely room ain't got no doorway, there's no way out
Got no TV, got no phone, no one hears me shout
The new day can't be different when the past is a tomb
in my lonely room... my lonely room...

Sometimes, now, a voice comes creeping inside my ear
Whispers to me soft and low so I can't hardly hear...
Makes me listen, makes me turn my thoughts from the doom
Of my lonely room... my lonely room...

It tells me to walk carefully, one step--then another
It tells me to feel everything, be more like my mother
To feel below these walls around, to grow below the floor
To my body below... the Earth in the snow...
My live aching heart... this place where I start...

Here is the place where everything grows
Here is the magic spell that nobody knows
Here is a treasure cavern, deep in the womb
Under my lonely room… it's not my only room...

The Forgotten Warrior

 Guilt is the bane of the heartchild with potential
Twisted by a straight man, he soon becomes indentured
And shanghaied he in savage sea
Hypnotized by his reverie
Soon maroons his boat on his adventure

The forgotten warrior dreams at night
Of battles, conquests and what's not right
The forgotten warrior plays, alright
But he never gets it his way
Or certainly, not for long
And when the night is done
I wake up, and roll over, and he's gone

She was the rain on the heartchild soon sequestered
Away from her touch, was told she was a desert
Deceived was he by the words so cruel
Raised a prince in a world of fools
The magic she could offer never tested

The forgotten warrior is a knight
Between two faces of the light
Young warrior forgets his plight
So he ventures to the golden Sun
And lay he down his fierce weapon
No more was he in charge
He's born again, but this time, he's not the One

Lost was he 'midst the rocks of God's knee
Adrift without any paddle or lee
Know well you the rules for survival?
What kept you alive for two score and five
To what fate did you feel entitled?

The forgotten warrior sailed those seas
He struggles forever, won't somebody please
Help him get up off of his knees
He's losing but he doesn't know it
He's got to heal with the Man
Take him inside, no more can he hide
We all need him to do what he can

I'll feel the pain of this heartchild in potential
Escaping from a hate land to cry tears torrential
Encourage me, o siren sea
I've authorized my coterie
To return at last, without credential

The forgotten warrior dreams at night…

In The Dark Of The Moon 

Remember the Red time to keep it holy
Remember the tides in your blood
Remember the Red time, She keeps it holy
As She flowed to Earth in the flood of your birth
So She swells in the womb of the woman in you
She keeps you in tune with the moon
She is your mother, child
She is here for you now

How can I tell what’s Her and what’s me
I want to yell, “Oh let me be free”
How can She show me how I should be
When She lives in the dark of the moon
Yes She lives in the dark of the moon...

She rises and swells and I see through red eyes
She whispers and tells me how to be Her disguise
But I am afraid to be so deep and wise
to live in the dark of the moon
to live in the dark of the moon

Remember the Red time to keep it holy
Remember the tides in your blood
Remember the Red time, She keeps it holy
As She flowed to Earth in the flood of your birth
So She swells in the womb of the woman in you
She keeps you in tune with the moon
She is your mother, child
She is here for you now

I don’t understand Her or why She needs me
I don’t recognize Her, and I fight to be free
But She waits in the darkness with deep loving eyes
She calls to me softly and sings lullabies
She says, I am your Mother, child...
She says, I am here for you now...

She opens in me through the pulse of my womb
She deepens in me with each phase of the moon
She faces toward me when the bright moon has gone
To shine its soft light on the sun
For Hers is the light when the light is all gone

My sisters and brothers, Her children are we
I recognize you when your voices are free
Flowing like rivers to the soft melting sea
To where She lives in the dark of the moon
She lives in the dark of the moon

And She comes to me in the night, in the dark
When the moon has turned its face away
She comes to me in the night, in the dark
She whispers, and I hear Her say

Remember the Red time, to keep it holy
Remember I live in your blood
Remember the Red time, I keep it holy
I flowed to Earth in the flood of your birth
and I swell in the womb of the woman in you
I keep you in tune with the moon
For I am your mother, child
I am here for you now  

and I live in the dark of the moon
Yes, I live in the dark of your moon

Sleeping With Your Enemy

Good love gold like honey, taste sweet till you die
Good love lift you higher, ‘til you got to fall or fly
There’s a war that's raging, and in it you get killed
This ain't no phony staging, oh no, it's all too real
Don't matter if you're right or wrong when good love goes to hell
Good love goes to hell

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know, ohhh

Good love fill you fuller than you ever want to be
Good love show you more dark than you ever want to see
Love will kill you dead if you don't fight for your right to be
Fill your legs with lead, fill your soul with poetry
Don't ever once forget that you are sleeping with your enemy
Sleeping with your enemy

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know, ohhh

You want to know how to go home to a place that's always soft and warm
You want a home in Heartland, where good love knows no harm
Don’t you know you've gotta forgive yourself 'fore you give your heart away
You've gotta learn to love yourself, well, I know that's what they say
There's wisdom in the ages, there's ice cream in the sky
While you're pressed between the pages of your choice to live or die
Your choice to live or die

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know, ohhh

Love your enemy as yourself, learn exactly who you be
Take your hard heart off of the shelf, dust it off and give it a squeeze
Don't question why you're bound to die, don't you know you want to live
Don't lose yourself in reasons why it's too much to forgive
'Cause all down through your history you've been sleeping with your enemy
Sleeping with your enemy

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
I don't know, I don't know, ohhh

Love your enemy as yourself, take those feelings off of the shelf
Love yourself as you love me, and together we'll be free
Together we’ll be free

I know, I know, I know, I know, yes, I know…
I don't know, I don't know, ohhh

Acceptance 

 
I no longer believe that I am anything outside of love
I no longer believe that it's bad to be a tiny frightened dove
I am a window, the water and a wave
Sometimes an outlaw a jailor a slave
I just want to be me, accept my right to just be

Hey yay yay, hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yahhhhh
Hey yay yay hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yahhhhh

I no longer believe that there's a race my fear says must be won
I no longer believe that I must do what they say must be done
I am a window the water and a wave
Sometimes a hero a puppet a knave
I just want to be free, accept responsibility

Hey yay yay, hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yahhhhh
Hey yay yay hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yahhhhh

My body my desire lead me ever higher
What was lost does now aspire
To come home by the fire of our love

Hey yay yay, hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yahhhhh
Hey yay yay hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yahhhhh

I no longer believe that we are anything outside of love
I no longer believe that it's bad to be tiny frightened doves
We are the windows, the water and the waves
The healing hidden saviours in our caves
We who want to be free must accept that reality

Hey yay yay, hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yahhhhh
Hey yay yay hey yay ya, hey yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yahhhhh

Red Hands

 
To be treated tenderly when we grieve
To know we may return home when we leave
To go the ways we’re called to go, to know that we are free
So small are all the things we really need

Things like food when we’re empty and warmth when we’re cold
Comfort when we’re frightened, adventure when we’re bold
Company when we’re alone, and candles in the night
Give to us, o give us, give us light

For we’re lost, we can’t come home, too long and far we’ve roamed
And we’re broken and we’re battered and it’s really hard to know
Who did what to who, and when, and why our hands are red
And we can’t recall at all what the Savior said.

Our hearts are hard, our candles have all burned
Our spirit has departed, naught we’ve learned
For bombs still fall upon the small while we who drop them sigh
“No choice had we,” we claim...but it’s a lie

Evil walks the planet in our flesh
It points at others, whispers, “Wickedness!
They are the ones who must be shown that our God’s the One to dread!”
And no one wants to know what the Prophet said

My heart is sore and swollen in my breast
I feel these times a trial and a test
I call upon the living Earth for will when I am weak
She is the land I stand on, and She’s all the God I seek

May we be treated tenderly when we grieve
May we know we may return home when we leave
May we go the ways we’re called to go, may we know that we are free
May we have all the small things that we need

Things like food when we’re empty, warmth when we’re cold
Help when we’re helpless, and respect when we’re old
Come to us when we are lost, bring us candles in the night
O give to us, o give us, give us light

For we’re lost, we can’t come home, too long and far we’ve roamed
And we’re broken and we’re battered and it’s really hard to know
Who did what to who, and when, and why our hands are red
And no one wants to know what the Prophet said
And we can’t recall at all what the Savior said.

Something About Christmas  

Words and Music by Phoenix Wolf-Ray

Something about Christmas touches me
Something about a child and a Christmas tree
Something about Santa watching me, yes
There's something about Christmas,
something about Christmas
something about Christmastime…

It’s more than the trees and the turkeys we kill
More than the gifts and the stockings we fill
More than the trappings, the tinsel and wrappings
It’s something I cannot define
But it happens to me every time

Once was a man, or so they say
He lived then he died and went away
He was born in a manger on a bed of hay
He said something about Christmas,
something about Christmas
something about Christmastime…

It might be the smiles on the faces in line
It might be the children who remind me of mine
It might be desires for warm cozy fires
And abundance with my family
Oh, Christmas feels like home to me

When I hear the songs I start to cry
My heart gets so full, I don’t know why
It’s only a commercial holiday
But there’s something about Christmas,
something about Christmas…
something about Christmas time

Oh, but then I see the hungry faces pressed upon the glass
And I feel the empty memories of Christmases long past
And the dream feels cold and hollow as I awake to news of war
And nothing ever changes after Christmas, as before

Santa dear Santa, come out tonight
Bathe this old world in love’s sweet light
Put an end to the lying and the dying
Teach us about Christmas,
The truth about Christmas,
So we’ll all live in Christmastime

Something about Christmas touches me
Something about a child and a Christmas tree
Something about Santa watching me, yes
There's something about Christmas,
something about Christmas
something about Christmastime…

Mary Fairy  

Words and Melody by Phoenix Wolf-Ray

Oh Mary , I knew you when you were a queen
Seems like such a long long time ago
Oh Mary , your magic was a song in green
And like the grasses you did grow
You were Sister to the trees,
Buds waving in the spicy breeze , o Mary
Mary fairy

Oh Mary , once you were a sacred holy seed
Such a priceless gift you gave
Oh Mary , you gave the people all they'd need
Till warriors came and made us slaves
You fed and clothed us, washed our backs
While wind in your sails kept us on tack, o Mary
Mary fairy

O Mary, now they've gone and thrown you away
no Mary can't come out to play
O Mary, no more in breezes do you sway,
to know her is a crime today
Your gifts are gone, they're stamping you out
the outrage makes me want to shout
Those law-drugged louts are killing her kind
Washing our brains clean, robbing us blind, O Mary  

Still, truth to tell, I've no desire
to burn my ashes on this pyre
I won't plant you in my garden,
I won't tend your budding branches
I'm afraid of the long-armed warriors,
With those wolves, I will not dance
With those wolves, I dare not dance
Don't want to sell my soul to law-yers
Won't somebody give Mary a chance
Won't somebody give Mary a chance  

O Mary, responsibility I gladly take
no more shall they steal my soul away
O Mary, I will learn the magic that you make
no more slavery, no more will I take
in her breast I rest, like a bird in the nest
like a babe in the womb, like a corpse in a tomb…
Like a mermaid swimming on the waves
Like a body stirring in its grave
Reaching for Mary
Mother Mary , Mary fairy